I always try my laundry in the morning. Because I have not. I tinkered my panties and my stockings with needle and thread that my mother gave me to sew dresses for my barbie. I roll of masking tape around my waist because my pants are elastic Evant. I always wear the same sweater every day because I do not want to wear gowns fashioned that my mother gave me. You know, the kind of blouse mandarin collar and long ribbon to loop? Today it is all the rage in fashionable boutiques but at the time, it was more than a basement church. Luckily my neighbor that we passed on his old songs. When I came home from school, she called me, handing me the paper bag. I went further and I delved into it: when I found a song that I liked, I hid. Because my mother did to me would probably not pass. I do not know why she was so anxious to see me as a girl-rag. Anyway, I suffered a lot because of that ...
IMAGE is to realize you're not like other girls. And they also realize the same finding. We may say, but children as adults, carry a severe sentence on how we dress. It was noticed that I was poor ... Over time, I understood that it was not so poor as that but my mom budget very badly. In fact, she did not know how, nobody showed him the resources and, in time, were absent. Thrift stores, soups community support desk, it did not exist. And honestly, I do not think my mother would have attended such a place at the time ...
Then the fragile little girl was the one we beat up during recess or at the end of the school. The one kicked broomball in the face. The one locked in the toilet. That which remains alone in the work team. Have a friend that I was a luxury that only benefited from the age of 12. 12 years of non-socialization ... it leaves a mark for life.
I'm not complaining but I now know why there will always 2 Magnolia: one who is smiling and loving life and one that will always remain fragile. That expressed too much time and that that line the walls. I am under more expectations now. I give up.
A day at a time ... such is life going!
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